Just the beginning

I don't know if anyone can really prepare for being pregnant or having a baby. I have always been a planned and prepared person and this just seems so surreal to me right now. All the symptoms are there to reassure me that this is real and happening but I can't seem to wrap my mind around the big picture. I can't wait for the ultrasound on the 25th. I think that will help me realize that this is for real and not a dream. The worry is the worst right now, some days I am fine and think everything will go just as planned and then there are other days when I question every move in my body or every action that I take to make sure everything is going to be all right. I keep reading that this is typical and that every first time mom goes through this...first time mom...that sounds so weird! I am going to be a mom! Holy crap, I think I am going to go to bed now.... :)